once again, the Day Off Ladies Club met up last saturday and had a great time together, chit chatting over a sumptuous lunch at Cerchio, a new restaurant at scout limbaga street in QC. i was running late and so forgot to bring my camera with me. shucks.
surprisingly, there was a question thrown at me at that time which i also have been asking myself past couple of weeks. i was a bit taken aback hearing it out loud, more so in the honesty of my answer. the question was
"are you ok with your life now?"
and i answered slowly, yeees, sounding as if i was not so sure :) it's hard. it's different now. one aspect is that i feel kinda guilty for not contributing financially in our household. i used to be employed and though my salary was just small, at least i was able to help my husband. i don't want for my husband alone to carry the load of working for the family. i don't want him to be pressured because he is the only one supporting our family. i feel helpless in this part.
i have also asked myself if this is it? shall i be a forever mother and wife? i know there is no changing the fact that i am a wife and mother. and i am so blessed to be those. but, will i be somebody else on the side? a good baker? a brilliant photographer? a cook? a successful businesswoman? little by little, i try whatever i feel like doing. as to when to go full blast on other things, and whether ill be good at it, well, only time can tell.
i was assured by my 'co-mothers' that i shouldn't be guilty. for one thing, God had really set our roles. and that parenting and being a stay at home mother is indeed very tough. they could attest to it. :) its so good to hang out with these girls! they are so true, and talks with sense!
can i just share that i recently read that
studies show that each commom interest between people brings about a 2% increase in life satisfaction.
anyway, going back, i know that i am capable. someday i can attach another title next to "mother and wife". for now, God wants me to devote most of my time to my supportive husband and charming girls.
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