robin at 11 months

two weeks from now and robin will turn 1. yup, time flies so fast. at 11 months old, she smiles a lot (more so bungisngis), knows how to wave when you say bye bye or hi, have 5 teeth, gets mad when you get something from her or when you don't give what you want, knows how to get down from the bed, knows high five, smacks her lips when you say kiss, doesn't like to be alone, likes to play hide and seek, so happy everytime she sees ate raya, and robin can stand and walk through gliding. 

we are blessed that she is one happy and healthy kid. there's just one concern of ours, she seems small for her age and can't walk yet on her own. i wonder if it's because i breastfed for only 5 months :( is that really the effect for not completing the recommended six months of breasfeeding? our pedia is not worried yet. though she added robin's vitamins, she assured us that it is not yet time to go to a "height-weight" specialist. robin is still young and besides, raya used to have the same concern when she was robin's age. also, we her parents, as well as the members of the family, are not really in the heavy and tall side. my older sister is just 4'9"!! sheesh! anyway, so recently, i've been really monitoring robin's milk intake and makes sure that all her vitamins are given. she seemed to have gained weight. yipee!!

im sad that i wasn't able to breastfeed for six months or more. but i did really try. some mothers find it easy. i didn't. it was kind of difficult for me at that time. though i was already a stay-at-home-mom, i was stressed and tired most of the time. i was handling 2 businesses, a household and a toddler/pre-schooler. and i only have 1 helper/yaya at home. not to make excuses, but that was really it. 

i am not guilty too because i didn't let robin go hungry :) i can't stand hearing her cry of hunger because few milk comes out of me. so i started giving her formula. i know that's better than not giving her anything. its also good that robin dont get to feel the stress that i was feeling. i'd rather she drinks her formula, be full and be happy. :)