time out

i love my husband and my kids very much. they are truly God's gifts to me. infact, i consider them my life. totoo pla yun?  i mean, a person could be somebody else's life! i can say that when i became a mom and a wife. but, can i just say TIME OUT muna?  sometimes, i get tired too from all the crying, the disciplining, picking up scattered toys & clothes on the floor, putting things in order, preparing food, fixing stuff, interrupted sleep, budgeting, thinking of ways to earn extra and so on and on and on. now i question myself if i allow myself to rest. yes i do. i am not sure if it is enough. am i the "do-it-all" person? i don't think so. it's just that my current maid doesn't know how to cook so i do the cooking. i also do not want to completely entrust my kids to her. i want to be the one to give my girls a bath, feed them and i want to be with them. do i need another helper? but we can't afford it yet

:'(  and i'm home most of the time so i don't think we need another one. so what is it? oh no, might be a case of time management. but its not. when my first daughter raya, started to go to school, i have somehow managed my schedule. maybe having a new baby & a toddler, a workaholic husband, a not-so-efficient helper in the house, a tight budget, and 3 business on the side is really quite a handful. i wonder how my lola who have 8 kids managed it before? or my mom who have 3 kids did it? to think she was a working mom. maybe it was really different back then. hay, kakaloka tlga!      

when is enough, enough?

re-posting. i posted this through my livejournal account...

when is enough, enough?

ricamae
April 10th, 23:21
the other day, something's bothering me and so i texted my friend and shared my thought: "when is enough, enough?". some say, never. others say, they don't know. as for me, i think it is enough when you want it to. this is with regards to my husband working so hard that he ends up missing on his meals and going home late. dont get me wrong. i am so proud of him because he is so focused on whatever he sets his mind to. and he is good! he is also driven. and most importantly, he have goals. he works hard because he wants to climb the corporate ladder and so we, his family, will benefit from it. he have all my support. but then, we also need him at home. i need him, too. true, that he spend his weekends with us. does that mean that weekdays are truly alotted for work alone? what about his health? if he does accomplish his goals and dreams, then what? will it lessen his workload so he'll have more time with us? if he reaches the top, we might be able to afford everything we have wanted and/or needed. but will that be enough? i am happy with the blessings that comes to us. i am proud of him. i am just worried about his health and the amount fo time spent for us and him alone. i understand that he also needs to work to be able to provide as man of the house. ey, there are bills to pay! i just hope that one day, all the sacrifices made by each one will be so worth it. i know that day will come. i pray that we wont be too greedy to want for more than what we can handle.
Tags: family, goal, time